I'm back...

Wow... I just read my last post and it's more than two years ago... I love writing and I might be boring but the good feeling I get after writing is something I can't describe... It's something that I wouldn't change with anything else. I've been busy and been through ups and downs of life. But things are kinda back to normal... like I don't have to work 16 hours a day like last December and January and even though I'm in the middle of renovating my house and planning a wedding, I'm a lot less stressed as I used to be. This is really quick update of what is going on... but what is really going on which occupies my mind 80 percent of the time is my new book... I hired this girl back in June after interviewing maybe 20 people and I was ready to settle on one of the mediocre one and try to train her but my boss told me to wait until i find the perfect candidate... and I did... she is smart ... very smart and really working with her is so easy... maybe that's why my stress level is so down. I took a vacation in August to go to a cottage we rented for week and I was looking to find a good book to read. So she told me about this book she is reading and brought the first two books of twilight for me.... I know I know.... it's not exactly the kind of book that considered "real book" not like Hemingway which I really like but it's a book and it's good for reading in vacation... But I had no idea that I’m going to get obsessed with it so much that I couldn't stop thinking about it... by Monday at the cottage I finished the first book and Rish(my fiancé) had to come back to Toronto for a meeting so I asked him to rent me the movie. I was in the middle of the second book when he brought the movie. I'm so glad he is being what he is because instead of renting it, he bought the blue ray DVD. He has absolutely no sense of money but he is great... so I watched the DVD and finished the second book and now all I can think about is this book and specially Edward Cullen... the second main character which is a Vampire and falls in love with this human... I just don’t know why I'm attracted to him so much. I think it's because he has everything anyone wants. He is drop dead gorgeous, he has lots of money and he is been living for 100 years and he is not dying and he graduated Harvard and few other ivy leagues and really when you don't have to sleep for 100 years, there's a lot you can learn . Usually all the love stories, the person in love is in some sort of disadvantage and really when someone has everything going for him is usually subject to other people being in love with him. But he has this unconditional love for Bella even though he has to stop himself from drinking her blood... I totally think they could have found a better actor for the role of Edward Cullen. Robert Pattinson is great and because of his role in Harry Potter, I kinda like him but Edward should have been someone like Daniel Day-Lewis only maybe few decades younger! I'm reading the third book now and I am enjoying every moment of it. It's like I enter this different world when I open the book.

UPDATE

I love when people take the time to write a comment in my blog to point out that I’m very shallow and always write about my feelings. Well… I tell you what… I’m pretty busy person and recently got much busier because of work and all the sports I play and really I only feel the need of writing in this blog when I’m down or I need to write. I don’t know how to describe this feeling but I when I’m feeling down writing or reading a book helps me feel better. Once in a while I see a movie or attend an event that worth writing about and I share it with my readers but really this is my diary.

These are the quick updates of what’s happening with me.
- Went to LA for a week in May and had a great time with my friends. These are my really good friends from school and I really feel comfortable with them. We partied almost every night and I spent a lot of time with my friend’s little son. He is the smartest little thing ever.
- Went to Montreal and here what I wrote before I leave and didn’t get a chance to post it on June 29th:
I’m going to Montréal tonight. My train got cancelled because of native blockade. I’m getting a ride from a friend. The funny part of it is that I’m going to Montreal to spend the long weekend with my boyfriend, driving in a car with my ex’s Mom. That’d be very awkward if you think about it. I’m excited about this weekend. It’s going to be tons of fun. Couples of other friends are going from Toronto and I’m going to meet up with them and my friend who lives in Montreal as well.
- Montreal trip turned out to be super fun and ROMANTIC!
- Well guess what… I can’t really write about last week when I was off. It was a great vacation though!

I want to see Harry Potter ASAP and I’m going camping this weekend.
I started my marathon training two weeks ago and it’s going well. The way it works is that I have to run three times a week. First run is the easy run between 6 to 10 kilometers. It’s funny that this number is now easy run for me but it’s not that hard to do it anymore. The second day I’ll do speed work which is like running a 5 k really fast with warm up and cool down time. My third run day is the long run which increases every week until end of September. A week before the marathon, I have to run a 21K (half marathon) and then get ready for the big day. I’m pumped and excited about it. I notice that I like running a lot but I enjoy planning and making it happen as well. I keep calculating my pace and time and changing the scenarios.

Did I mention that I fractured my toe? It does not hurt as long as I don’t touch it. Well it kinda does… after playing Frisbee today it was a bit sore.

Evil

Usually I’m this happy, energetic and excited person. I even get excited about my job and project I work on. One day in the month I feel so crappy and I want to cry and I have to be careful not to yell at people. I get angry, jealous and unreasonable for every little thing and treat people I like in a shitty way. I feel I hate people that I love and I feel that my life is over and I’m this unaccomplished person that not going to get anywhere. Then I feel bad and I start crying. This is only for one day and the next day I’m back to happy, loving me. I wish I know the chemical in my body that create these mood swings. I’ll do a lot of exercise and try to eat balanced and healthy. I almost hang up on one of my good friends last night. This little evil inside me wakes up every month and I have to fight with her/him. I have a feeling the little evil is a male, the aggressive, obnoxious and arrogant one. He keeps telling me that I’m not good enough. Well I had a big fight with him last night and even though I kind of lost at the end and cried in bed, I managed to make sure that my poor friend is not offended.

Bruised Wrist and chin

I played softball last night for the first time with my company team. There are muscles in my body that never worked before. I guess catching and throwing make these muscles work hard. I hit the ball once and made it to the first base and ran to the second base when the other guy hit the ball and then I was out. I don’t know exactly why. The rules are very complicated. I was standing behind the batter (I really don’t know the name of that position) and one of the guys throw the ball at me and I tried to catch it but it hit my wrist and bounced and hit my chin. I have a giant bruise on my wrist and a tiny one on my chin. I guess I didn’t know softball ball is so heavy. I’m playing beach volley tonight. I hope I can use my wrist. Weekend is almost here and it’s going to be fun. I have the Canada – Argentina under 20 game on Friday and then I’m going out for one of the girls birthday. I have rock climbing with Neg. and a TFC game on Saturday. Hopefully I can get some rest on Sunday. By the way I’m right at 110lb and I’m going to keep it. Quitting alcohol will help me maintain the weight.

After the softball game I played first soccer game of my life last night and it was so much fun. We won 4-1 and I passed one of the goals. I think I’m trying to make up for all my teenager day that I didn’t get to play any sport except skiing. Watching tons of soccer kinda helped me play better that someone who’s playing for the first time.

Weekend

It’s going to be a crazy weekend. I’m leaving work around 5ish to go pick up my jeans from alteration place. Yeah yeah.. I’m very short.. I can’t find any jeans that fit me. I have to get them altered. Then I’m going to meet up with Leila at tequila book warm for drink and possibly dinner. I have to be in north york around 8 for tequila shot madness! Yeah.. too many tequila in one paragraph doesn’t sound so good. The story is that one of my friend posted in his facebook that he craves tequila … so we are lining up shots tonight. And there is a possibility of playing the new playstation. I might end up going out after that to same cheesy club I hated last week.
Saturday if I’m still alive I’m going rock climbing with Negar and have to go to Nima and Takin’s show. I’m invited to two parties on Saturday. I have to choose to go to one though because I have a race on Sunday morning and I can’t stay out late Saturday night. Sunday sound promising though. It’s going to be a 10K run and brunch after and I’m going to rest and stay home and not do anything at all. Oh shit… I have ultimate practice on Sunday.. well looks like I’m not resting. I just looked… there is a really good game on Sunday. Chelsea vs. Arsenal… here goes my Sunday.

I wrote the above before the weekend and I didn’t post it. So here is what happened.
Went out with Leila. Had an awesome time. She is so funny and sweet. We ordered the asiago and avocado salad and some fruity drink and chatted for two hours. Then I went to my friends place in North York and I did the big mistake of drinking excessive amount of tequila. I ended up throwing up and feeling awful. I didn’t end up going to that cheesy club. I woke up with a massive headache Saturday morning but somehow I managed to go to rock climbing with Neg. We went to Nima’s show, Takin exhibition ( my photo wasn’t that bad) and came back home and I was so tired that I slept until 6 in the morning, which means that I missed both parties. 10 K run was ok did 3 minutes better than last year and while I was talking to one of my colleges that ran with me, I decided that I should quit alcohol. He was telling me that alcohol is the reason I can’t get flat abs.

Here is my new plan. I’m not drinking not even a sip of alcohol until end of July. And I’m pretty damn serious.

Best thing that happened this weekend was the result of Arsenal and Chelsea game. They tied and that made Manchester United the winner of this year premiership league. Also I won a sushi lunch. I bet with one of the guys at work that Man U will win the league. He is a Chelsea fan.

Update

I manage to keep the weight off pretty good. I’m down to 111.8 and should get rid of the 1.8 by the end of the week. Training’s going pretty well. I can run 8K in 38 minutes. I have a 10K race coming up this weekend and I’m hoping I can do less than 48 minutes. It’s all down hill and it should be easy.
I was staying at a friend place in north york on Sunday and decided to go for a run. Wow… nobody runs in north york. Sunday was a gorgeous weather and if it was downtown, I’d see at least one runner every minute. I ran from empress walk to Bayview and back and the only thing I saw was people in their SUVs staring at a crazy girl running. Also I could smell rice (Persian style!) I don’t think I can live in north york. I gotta say running on empress was quiet nice though.

Friday night, I went to Haale concert at Lula lounge. She is really talented. I have to buy her CD. She is different, confident and has a great voice. Also she is very pretty, genuine and has great athletic body. I don’t know why but I made mistake of leaving Lula lounge and going to Devil’s Martini around 11ish. The music was bad, so bad that I wanted to leave as soon as I got there. I ended up staying until 1:30 with my friends from work but I don’t think I’ll go back again. I went to the TFC home opener game on Saturday. The stadium was packed with people. It was so much fun watching a live soccer game in the stadium despite the fact that I had a hang over from the night before.

Nima has a show this Saturday and Takin has a photography exhibition. He told me he has a picture of me too which I hope it’s good otherwise he is dead. He claims that I said it’s ok for him to use it when I was drunk. I should stop drinking I guess unless the picture is very good. I don’t think I can quit drinking with the crowd I hang out with recently.

It’s going to be a busy weekend and I’m looking forward to see my friends, run the 10K and go rock climbing with Negar.

Update Bridget Jones style

Sunday April 22, 2007.
Weight: 112.4
Running Distance: 7.0K
Time: 33:00
Food I shouldn’t have eaten: Tripe chocolate Danish

I'm losing that extra 5 pound pretty fast. Just have to stay away from food I've been eating for the past couple of weeks or reduce the portions. Also have to work on drinking more water and limiting my alcohol intake. This weekend... I had 4 beer, 3 Vodka and pineapple juice and one Bellini. Not a lot but it might be a good idea to limit my alcohol consumption to 6 drinks a week.
The weekend was gorgeous though. I went out on Friday night with friends from work to Bier Market for drinks and dinner. Played Frisbee all morning on Saturday and got sunburn on my shoulders. Went to the Phoenix on Saturday night with couple of friends. The music was not what I was hoping for but I had fun. Got my taxes done and spend all my Sunday wondering around and having beer on the patio. This means that I didn't get anything done in the weekend and that'd translate to long working days next week and more work at home. I rented Volver and going to watch it tonight... will write about it later.

Ciao