Evil

Usually I’m this happy, energetic and excited person. I even get excited about my job and project I work on. One day in the month I feel so crappy and I want to cry and I have to be careful not to yell at people. I get angry, jealous and unreasonable for every little thing and treat people I like in a shitty way. I feel I hate people that I love and I feel that my life is over and I’m this unaccomplished person that not going to get anywhere. Then I feel bad and I start crying. This is only for one day and the next day I’m back to happy, loving me. I wish I know the chemical in my body that create these mood swings. I’ll do a lot of exercise and try to eat balanced and healthy. I almost hang up on one of my good friends last night. This little evil inside me wakes up every month and I have to fight with her/him. I have a feeling the little evil is a male, the aggressive, obnoxious and arrogant one. He keeps telling me that I’m not good enough. Well I had a big fight with him last night and even though I kind of lost at the end and cried in bed, I managed to make sure that my poor friend is not offended.